It’s been a while…
I could easily make the excuse that school’s been keeping me busy, (it has) but it isn’t the whole truth.
And I’m tired of lies, especially ones I tell myself.
So here goes…
Really, it’s because of fear.
Alright, yep, I finally admitted it. (I can sigh in relief now)
When I first began this blog, I didn’t have to worry about people reading whatever I posted. I didn’t have any readers. It was more for me anyways, to say I was actually doing something with my writing (which didn’t really happen).
But then people actually looked at my blog, liked it, followed it. Suddenly, the blog grew its own shadow and I couldn’t escape it. I grew scared to write.
It’s weird, I know. Writers write to have things read, right?
I have to get used to people reading my writing (even the nonsensical musings on this blog).
I don’t want to give up on this blog. I’ve given up on too many things, but writing I want to keep. So, thanks with sticking with me this far.
There’s a quote I like from Kurt Vonnegut. He said, “Write to please just one person. If you open a window and make love to the world, so to speak, your story will get pneumonia.”
I feel like I need to go back to how it was before, writing for myself. If no one likes it, fine. If someone likes it, fine. Either way, it won’t stop me from writing.
This is way overdue, but let’s make this an awesome year!
Have you ever wanted to stop writing or something else you loved to do?