Fighting Hermitism

Yet again I’ve fallen off the blogging horse. I’m not sure if it’s the pressure to be consistent or because I have commitment issues (or a mixture of both). Really, I believe it’s the fear that I don’t have anything worth while to say.

It’s time to shake off my hermit shell, it’s been about three months. Maybe I can stay active a while longer before hibernating again.


Last night, I went to a friend’s graduation from a course she took called the Landmark Forum, which to my understanding is like counseling boot camp. You go for three days, get coached and find what they call your breakthrough.

After buckets of tears and tissues, I signed up for the next one in January. Here’s to shedding the ugly shell of negativity and realizing a better me…

Yea, it sounds cheesy but it’s too late to back out now.


I’m happy to report that while I haven’t been blogging, I’ve been busy writing (the one thing I can’t really give up). Finally finished my novel and started on the sequel ^_^

I’m so excited because I thought I would never see the day I’d complete something, especially so long. I love flipping through my manuscript and just “wow. Yea, I did it.”

A friend is being so awesome and is my beta reader. I haven’t spoken to her since I gave her the manuscript and it’s just eating away at me. Will she like it? Will I have to scoop out a bunch of scenes or just burn the abomination that it is?


I’ve also been writing short stories, which are super fun! I guess I never really realized it, and feel dumb for not taking them seriously. Novels are great, but reading a short story is like instant gratification.a297b454e38ab19556dd1bbfaf6eeece

One of my brothers loves sports video games while I lean towards RPGs (complex story plots anytime :3). When I asked him about it, he said he was easily satisfied, just twenty minutes and the round is over. If you’ve played RPGs, twenty minutes is basically traveling to the next quest point (even cheating with fast travel doesn’t give much time).

I remember once, I tried timing myself, like okay, you’ve got like an hour to play. It was Dragon Age: Inquisition I believe, and that hour was running around foraging and talking to side quest characters and the game didn’t move along at all.

Novels are amazing, immersive, but like RPGs you need the time to fully appreciated all the story has to offer.

Sorry if all this seems like common sense, because really to me it’s like my breakthrough. All those little plot bunnies can just be kept short and sweet, they are now welcomed friends instead of annoying pests.

Guess that’s all for now, and maybe I’ll see y’all next week.

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Almost There

With the end of June, comes the end of my first summer session. I’m going to keep the momentum going and jump start on session 2 before I fall back on old habits ^_^

June has been such a busy month between classes, late night study groups, and writing. This January, I made a goal of writing at least 500 words a day, inspired by the picture below. It was comforting, seeing my goal in mosquito bites instead of the whomping monster that it was.7495ff62a881c3cbb988006969899369

So, this came out to a monthly goal of 15,000 words. Not too hard.

Boy, was I wrong. I kept making excuses for my pathetic word counts from drowning in school work to the pressure of making birthday presents, which were never on time.

I do not know what happened this month, something in me turned on, like the cartoon light bulb above a character’s head; it hit me.

This novel was never going to finish itself if I was always in the red. I tried to carve out that hour to write. Soon, I wasn’t dreading writing for that hour, turned off the annoying-inner-editor we all have, and just wrote. So now I’m happy to say, I’ve found my system, though I did skip a few days (bad bad), I surpassed my goal by more than 10k.

It’s still a long way from the 50k we’ll need for NaNoWriMo, but I still have a few more months to practice.

As always, happy writing ^_^

Cover Update

I’ve been milling around wondering what to post, so I decided to do a shout out to my friend, Heidi. A few months ago, she mentioned she was taking commissions to do art work. I asked if she could help me out with a cover for my novelette, Mine.

I was not disappointed. The cover is still in the works, but she sent me an update.

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Isn’t she beautiful ^_^ I was so surprised that it looked so realistic. I can’t wait to see the final project.

If you want a commissioned piece, send her a message at heidi.reyes2@gmail.com.

Now, I’m off to procrastinate and re-read some novels.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

New Books!

My new books came in last week! (Still waiting on one, but it’s coming from the UK, so I’ll give in another week :3 )

Behold, the Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix. I absolutely fell into love with these books 025when my friend, Lily, lent them to me. It’s been at least two years since I’ve read them and I love rediscovering all the characters once more ^_^

Sorry, nothing quite gets me excited than new books (even used ones). I was bouncing up the steps of the house, humming as I hugged the packages to my chest. Luckily, the neighbors weren’t around. My other friend Mollie has to talk me out of spending all my money on books (she doesn’t know about these yet).

027The other book I bought was Dead Men Do Tell Tales by Dr. William Maples. I was first introduced to this book in my first year of college. It was my English Lit class. We were paired up and an assigned a chapter to do a presentation on. My chapter?

Dismemberment ^_^

It might be weird but I find this subject utterly fascinating. Maybe it has to do with the dramatizing of TV shows like the X-files, Forensic Files or Dr. G (one of these things is not like the others), but its so enticing. Perhaps I’ll do a crime drama (probably not).

The funny thing is, I shy away from gore, but skeletons, I’ll take them by the dozen. I’m still trying to convince someone to go to a body farm with me, but no takers yet /:

Really, if I could go back in time I would force my younger self to become a forensic anthropologist or a pathologist instead of accounting (or really anything besides accounting).

The great thing about literature is that we aren’t bound to one life, we can choose to live many, we can be anything.

(Right when I wrote that, the Shakira song from Zootopia played in my head). Anyways, happy reading to all, my books are calling my name.

So…

Hi again.

I have this horrible habit both off and on-line because when comes to not talking to people or posting something for awhile, I grow anxious and keep postponing the inevitable. Yep, that means going silent for sometimes up to a few months (I’m basically a hermit to my friends). It’s been an end to a few friendships in the past. However, I finally sucked it up to write this post…

So, hello again.

School is out for the summer but I’m playing catch up once again (yay summer terms). On the plus side, I haven’t failed any classes (yet, still crossing fingers). I’m still trying to balance writing, crocheting and school. My goal is to finally finish up my novel, I want to finish it before my birthday. I have to go edit a fanfic I’m writing with a friend, and finish up more birthday presents (and start up on Christmas so it doesn’t sneak up on me again >_<). My hand is still sore from finishing my nephew’s birthday present.

 

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Here is my nephew’s Baymax. With ‘The Big Sleep’ for scale. I finished it about two weeks after his birthday >_< I got the pattern from BlueRabbit on Etsy. Used double strands to make him bigger. You possibly can’t tell from the light (thank goodness), but I accidentally used two different colors x-x (good thing he’s four ^^;)

I need to get back into the swing of things and I have so many posts I need to read because school left me with little time to keep up with the blogs I follow.

Also, I just ordered the Old Kingdom trilogy by Garth Nix. I’m so excited! It’s a race to finish all three books again so I can read the fourth book, Clariel (it was the only one my friend didn’t have and I just stumbled across it on amazon). This is one of my favorite fantasy series and I highly recommend it.

Have a great week and happy writing, everyone

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I just love this little guy!

 

 

 

When Death was Arrested

This is will be a short post today.

I just wanted to talk about this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qtnpwsJNRyw

There is a verse that goes:

Yes we’re free, free

Forever, we’re free

Come join the song of all the redeemed.

Yes we’re free, free

Forever, Amen

When death was arrested and my life began

 

This is a beautiful song and I wanted to share it with everyone. I was feeling down these last few weeks, but this song made me smile and remember I have so many things to be thankful for.

My mom and I call each other and tell the other when we hear a new song that we like. Even though we are thousands of miles apart, I’m glad we’re still able to share our love of music. This was the song I shared with her this week.

I’m not good at talking about spiritual matters, but it certainly is amazing how a few words can change a life. elegant125I can’t describe the emotion that overcomes me (pretty bad for a writer to be unable to describe) but it is awesome.

Have a great week ^_^

 

Long Walks

Good day!

I don’t know about you, but I love the fog. It’s rare where I live to have a nice thick fog but I got lucky this morning.

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Not my canyon but still very pretty ^_^

There is a canyon I like to jog through and veiled in fog, the path took on a mysterious feel even though I know the path well.

One of the first things I noticed as I turned into the canyon was the increase in spider webs. Maybe it is the change of the seasons and they are eager to begin their hunt but there were webs everywhere; on the ground looking like dirty cotton, on the plants and all along the fences.

As I walked, the hard sand crunched beneath my feet, the fog hugged the path and became like a tunnel. A variety of birds cried out, their songs and calls surprisingly did not conflict with each other. They were like an orchestra, each knowing their cues. One bird trilled every few seconds which reminded me of a piccolo.

The fog also reminded me of my 9th grade English teacher. There was a passage we were discussing where the main character was walking on a foggy night by a graveyard. He was alone on the street and the people were in their homes, their faces bathed in the glow of their televisions. My teacher asked us what was the tone of the story.

I said it was peaceful and calming and he immediately chastised me. I was never good with analyzing stories…

The fog, however, was great for setting the mood for my job. I use the Zombie Run! app which tells a story of survivors after the zombie apocalypse. I don’t like to exercise (I habit I’ve been trying to get out of) but I’ll do anything for a good story ^_^

I love the colorful cast of characters and hearing the moans of zombies in my ears while on a foggy road was just perfect.aria-meloetta-happy-legendary-pokemon-37772481-499-518

I probably looked funny nervously glancing over my shoulder, peering into the fog as if zombies were waiting to ambush me, but it was fun.

The question today is:

What do you do to keep yourself moving and active?

Time to hit those books!

Alright! Good day everyone! I’m super hyped about this year, so many plans and projects I have envisioned for this year (crossing my fingers that it doesn’t blow up in my face ^^;)

Ever since graduating high school I noticed my reading time declined significantly. If I can finish a book every couple of months I was happy. But I say no more! Most times, I was reading 2-3 books a year (egad!)

(I haven’t had sugar this time, I swear)

 

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On the Goodreads app (which I highly recommend. It’s basically a website to track books you’ve read, want to read, or are reading. It’s pretty neat.) or goodreads.com, you can set an annual reading goal. I set the goal of reading 10 books this year (not so bad). A classmate of mine saw this and agreed to the challenge. Then I found this:

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I hereby issue this challenge. I’ve already have a few books lined up that meet the criteria and roped a few buddies into accepting >:3

Yet, I still haven’t found an intimidating book…unless my accounting text book counts?

If you have any suggestions, I’m all ears (or eyes? I’m not sure how sayings work when reading actually).

Happy reading everyone.

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Hello, again…

It’s been a while…

cat-sleeping-on-books-390x292I could easily make the excuse that school’s been keeping me busy, (it has) but it isn’t the whole truth.

And I’m tired of lies, especially ones I tell myself.

So here goes…

Really, it’s because of fear.

Alright, yep, I finally admitted it. (I can sigh in relief now)

When I first began this blog, I didn’t have to worry about people reading whatever I posted. I didn’t have any readers. It was more for me anyways, to say I was actually doing something with my writing (which didn’t really happen).

But then people actually looked at my blog, liked it, followed it. Suddenly, the blog grew its own shadow and I couldn’t escape it. I grew scared to write.

It’s weird, I know. Writers write to have things read, right?

I have to get used to people reading my writing (even the nonsensical musings on this blog).

I don’t want to give up on this blog. I’ve given up on too many things, but writing I want to keep. So, thanks with sticking with me this far.

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There’s a quote I like from Kurt Vonnegut. He said, “Write to please just one person. If you open a window and make love to the world, so to speak, your story will get pneumonia.”

I feel like I need to go back to how it was before, writing for myself. If no one likes it, fine. If someone likes it, fine. Either way, it won’t stop me from writing.


 

This is way overdue, but let’s make this an awesome year!

Have you ever wanted to stop writing or something else you loved to do?

 

 

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I took an unintended two week break from writing. I believed that during my time off I would break my fingers from writing…but nothing. Soon I’ll return back to school and I’m trying to not burn out again (sigh).

I was so inspired after visiting my mother’s new home in Florida. It’s beautiful and while not quite the countryside there is a lot of peace and quiet and animals ^_^

Two of my mother’s neighbors have roosters and I’ve learned a few facts during my visit.

1-Roosters aren’t that loud. I feared that their crows would have me falling out of bed. It’s actually a bit soothing. When I’m home alone, it feels nice to know the world is going on around me.

2-Roosters don’t always crow at dawn. In fact, they like to do it all day long. Sometimes the two (one from each neighbor) will carry on a conversation. One will crow and the other will respond. They can go on for about half and hour just doing that.


It took us three days of wondering up and down the streets near my mother’s home, but we found this lovely little road that my uncle likes to call “Marmolejo” after a place from the Dominican Republic. While I myself have never seen Marmolejo,  (remember, j’s sound like h’s in Spanish ^-^) the road was still cool.

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We even found two lakes near the house. My mother wasn’t so thrilled about that since she doesn’t like to live near water but had to admit it was pretty. Even my niece (soon to be 11) enjoyed the walk, but after the first day she was back to carrying her tablet (foiled again :/)

Oh! Did I mention the peafowl? They are beautiful and roaming about.

We tried to count them all. What started as two males and a female turned out to be like 5-6 males and two females. I tried to convince my mother to buy one. She says when I move back, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed!

The change in scenery helped boost my word  counts in December but in January they have been lagging. I believe this is the third time I’ve sat down to write. I hope to keep all these new experiences with me and can’t wait to finally finish school and come home.


Do you have a place that you would like to revisit and why?